Confused

You said you’d catch me
If I fell but
Instead I just ended up
Bruised and broken
And I don’t know
What I’m doing
I tell you stop calling me
And then I text you
I’m confused cause
You said there’s no direction
In this relationship
But then you said
You’d follow me anywhere
So where am I supposed to lead you
We’re just going in
Circles for now
How do I quit this
How can I keep you
Let me go
But hold me tight
Cause I’m confused
And I just might
Let go, hold on, let go
Understand?
Help me understand.


Confused
11/30/2009

Peanut

my dog rocks.

twitter haiku

all i do is tweet
dont even give my number
just say "follow me"

- - cheeky

Song of the Day

i'm in need of this..

there's nothing like a man who can stimulate your mind

my foot is dope

Shot Me

Standing on solid ground but
Falling fast, I’m falling
Open my mouth to speak
Its his name that I’m calling

Please suffocate me with his presence
And with no air, I’d still breathe him
Drawn to him like the light
So with no sight I’d still see him

Gives me a school girl rush
He has me feeling silly
Phone rings for half a second
Got me answering so quickly

Thrown into my life
I wasn’t looking for a love affair
But all these late night conversations
Just make me want to take it there

I find myself smiling
And full of anxiety
And I can touch the stars cause
He inspires me to be a higher me

As my feet leave the ground
I realize he’s got me lifted
Supposed to be my anti drug
But to this man I’ve grown addicted

I don’t have to be perfect
Just enough to keep him happy
Today, tonight, tomorrow
And I know that sounds sappy

His every need and every wound
I’m longing to tend to
Battle scars from his past
I’ll right the wrongs he’s been through

There’s a pain in my chest
I hope he knows that he got me
With those long distance arrows
Through the heart, cupid shot me

Nice

maybe this is all i need.

go girlll

and check out moms bday cake

true love still exists

even when i'm bitter..i can always count on my parents to remind me of this

its still funny to me

No Luck

the hardest thing about writing is when you cant. i have the worst case of writers block and I'm not sure if its because my nails are too long and it takes too much effort to type for extended periods of time or if its that my mind is too full of stress. either way something is stopping me. i try and jot poetry ideas down in a daily basis and i even go over my book outline hoping to become inspired but I'm not feeling the magic lately. wish me luck.

Bon Qui Qui

this will always make me laugh.

i work better this way

they say my desk is too chaotic.

wake up

so i had a bad dream. it wasnt an ordinary one...i woke up covered in blood and my ex was sitting on my bed...eating my heart. i tried to stop him but he kept pushing me away. i woke up in a cold sweat. that shit is disturbed. i dont hate him as much as i wish i did...all though he did rip my heart out "emotionally"...that was over the top to see.

S-j Whiteley...built for sin

i might love this girl.

www.modelmayhem.com/sjwhiteley