"daddy says"

i was in my feelings, please excuse me...i didn't really vent about my breakup...so here goes

daddy says

when a man loves you

nothing can keep him away but

I guess you’re the

exception to the rule

my little anomaly

you love me

but you can’t stay

I wanted to believe you see

I adored you

you jus say

hold on

just chill for me

what happened to your promises

hope you’re happy now

I’m frozen by

icy words

no heart bastard

had me listening to r&b music

every poem I wrote screamed

your praises but you

lied and you stole

sweet, sweet criminal

shady fucking individual

Jaded ass love, I

Offered my soul while

Everything was a lie

You broke my heart

your name makes me cringe

and makes these pages crease

and my pen run out of ink

but a broken heart bleeds

so I’ll use the pain to bless these pages

three stages of a breakup

let’s call this part anger

daddy said if a man doesn't

love you

nothing can make him stay

so even these words now

are pointless

so I hope you never read them

old poetry...wtf

this post was inspired by . . . http://twitter.com/imtroyirock

i stumbled upon some old poetry and decided to read through it….my mistake…so happy I've grown…but I respect where I came from..here’s some old shit for whoever reads this blog…


im finding the simplest things the hardest to say / tongues gone numb / stuck in a system / daily routine / lather, rinse, repeat / heavy hearted / heavier footsteps / deep thoughts / digging my own grave / I’ve made my bed / but I cant sleep / im running from my own judgments / self punishment / I just want to bleed so I can feel alive / this psychological lock is stifling / please free my mind / so I can breathe


I have no idea what I was talking about.

LMAO

omg.....ahahahaha

excuse my absence. i been wildin out.

before i do my nails.....

what the fuck is this shit?

As He Read

He looked me in my eyes
And read me the words
That were engraved on his soul
I felt him in the
Flutters of my heart
Cause from one poet
To another I know what
It feels like to share the secrets
Of your mind
So I listened and tried to
Complete his thoughts
Before his lips could speak them
As he ripped open his chest
And let me watch his heart bleed
I know what that feels like
It’s the most
Vulnerable you could ever be
There’s no where to hide
Between the lines
Of stanzas
It’s more intimate than sex
And we had a threesome
Me, him, and his poetry
They turned me out
I’ve become addicted
His words, my new drug
His message, my needle
His mind, my vain
His poetry, my euphoria
Beyond impressed, I’m obsessed
With these same eyes
But now I see him clearer
He showed his soul to me
All because he shared his poetry

passion

i write until the pen runs out of ink; if i had to, i'd prick my finger and let the words bleed onto the page.

Lauryn Hill - Tell him

Let me be patient
Let me be kind
Make me unselfish
Without being blind
Though I may suffer I’ll envy him not
And endure what comes
Cause he's all that I got and tell him

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
And it'll be alright
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It’ll be alright

Now I may have faith to make mountains fall
But if I lack love then I have nothing at all
I can give away everything I possess
But am without love then I have no happiness
I know I’m imperfect and not without sin
But now that I’m older all childish things end.

I’ll never be jealous and I won't be too proud
Cause love is not boastful
And love is not loud
Tell him need him
Tell him I love him
Everything is gonna be alright

its costs to be the boss.

Confused

You said you’d catch me
If I fell but
Instead I just ended up
Bruised and broken
And I don’t know
What I’m doing
I tell you stop calling me
And then I text you
I’m confused cause
You said there’s no direction
In this relationship
But then you said
You’d follow me anywhere
So where am I supposed to lead you
We’re just going in
Circles for now
How do I quit this
How can I keep you
Let me go
But hold me tight
Cause I’m confused
And I just might
Let go, hold on, let go
Understand?
Help me understand.


Confused
11/30/2009

Peanut

my dog rocks.

twitter haiku

all i do is tweet
dont even give my number
just say "follow me"

- - cheeky

Song of the Day

i'm in need of this..

there's nothing like a man who can stimulate your mind

my foot is dope

Shot Me

Standing on solid ground but
Falling fast, I’m falling
Open my mouth to speak
Its his name that I’m calling

Please suffocate me with his presence
And with no air, I’d still breathe him
Drawn to him like the light
So with no sight I’d still see him

Gives me a school girl rush
He has me feeling silly
Phone rings for half a second
Got me answering so quickly

Thrown into my life
I wasn’t looking for a love affair
But all these late night conversations
Just make me want to take it there

I find myself smiling
And full of anxiety
And I can touch the stars cause
He inspires me to be a higher me

As my feet leave the ground
I realize he’s got me lifted
Supposed to be my anti drug
But to this man I’ve grown addicted

I don’t have to be perfect
Just enough to keep him happy
Today, tonight, tomorrow
And I know that sounds sappy

His every need and every wound
I’m longing to tend to
Battle scars from his past
I’ll right the wrongs he’s been through

There’s a pain in my chest
I hope he knows that he got me
With those long distance arrows
Through the heart, cupid shot me

Nice

maybe this is all i need.

go girlll

and check out moms bday cake

true love still exists

even when i'm bitter..i can always count on my parents to remind me of this

its still funny to me